December. 2013. Another December.
I remember took this photo some two years ago. This is the backyard of my parents in law’s house. I was so fascinated by my surroundings I kept taking pictures although it was really really cold. This is not actually my first December or my first winter in Germany. I always came here in Winter. Was not planned. Just happened to be so. There were time when I was somewhere else as well during December month. However no matter where I was, am, or perhaps will, December has always been the month reflections. Actually, a month with a lot of questions. From questions like ‘what have I done this year’ to ‘ Have I actually did all my resolutions from last year?’ sort of things. Oh yes. Just like other people, I ‘collected’ resolutions every end of the year. Some I did successfully. Some..well..gone with the wind. And I actually felt bad, when this gone with the wind happened. It felt worse, because I am mostly organized. And sometimes, December is scary! And what happened normally afterwards, is me making more and more lists. More and more resolutions to achieved.
Well this December, the routine is the same. Yesterday when I realize that it is indeed already December, I started to think back of what my life have become during this year. One quick answer that show up in my brain is the word happy. Yep. I am happy. Have I actually did all the things on my list? Nope. Not really. Do I feel bad? Surprisingly not!
I noticed that last December was still a scary December for me. After spending so much time dealing with bureaucracy, finally our permit to get married was out. Since October last year, apart from bureaucracy, I also have to take care of a lot of things back home, preparing to leave my family, leave my dog, leave my friends, leave my house. There were a long lists. But I did all that. Then I came to this beautiful country. I have a list too. A plan. A resolutions. For this year.
I have been in love with this song since the first time I heard it actually. But never had the chance to actually sing it! So recently I thought…why not..! Ha!
Anyways, I wasn’t feeling like ‘screaming’ the other day so I sang it a bit differently. Hope you enjoy it!
Happy weekend and stay loved!